Speak Up: I can't hear you.

You know, I mentioned confrontation in the last entry.  Today, I bundled up. Put on long underwear. A neck wrap.  Gloves. I hopped on my bike and was doing surprisingly well considering the temperature.  Biking in the cold wasn't as bad as I thought. It was the wind that was the major challenge.

I also confronted a conversation that needed to be had. I faced it and well, I feel like progress was made.  I need to practice this more often. I think we all feel better and have a better understanding when we let go of fear and live in our truth. It's definitely something that requires practice. 

So overall, it was a good day and here are the highlights.

1. Making the phone call to confront one of the "glitches" and talking things through was great.
2. Talked to my dad.  This was one of the best conversations. Actually, they have all been rather good since we've had "the open and honest" conversation. In the conversation last night, I guess I was on a roll with talking about confronting issues.  We talked about my cousin and some remarks that were made regarding Hurricane Sandy.  I told my dad that the older I get, the less willing I am to be a bystander.  When things are important, it's time to put aside the anxiety and fear of being judged. That's what's wrong with plenty of people as it is!  Speak your truth.  Even if someone doesn't agree with your truth, it's fine because it's not theirs anyhow!
3. I loved that I biked 17 miles today as opposed to the 10 miles I originally thought I'd only do.  WOO! HOO!  That was over 1700 calories burned.
4. One of my favorite scenes in a movie:  Neo Meets the Oracle for the Second Time. Just when we thought we made a choice, did we really? hmmm  Ponder. hahaha
5. I love Daylight Savings Time.  I love it for different reasons now.  Because I can sleep longer.  Not that I even sleep a lot.  When I was in college I loved it because the bars would all stay open one extra hour.  These days I could totally care less about that. 

A Glitch

I often call it a glitch in "The Matrix".  Ever since the movie of the same name, I think in terms of this.  When I enter into new friendships or relationships or just with friends, family or co-workers, there is sometimes a glitch.  Something that tells me, "You know, something just isn't the same." Others call it intuition.  I have a student that recently said that I can always sense when something isn't right with her.  Tonight, actually a few nights ago, I sensed that with someone else.

My intuitiveness used to drive me crazy.  Actually, if I said it still didn't do that on some level, I'd be lying. Whatever the outcome may be, I know there's something to be said for paying attention to that 6th sense.

It is what it is and while I'm not one to be confrontational, I've become more comfortable with it over the years but not so comfy that it's an easy area for me to delve into.  With that said, I do understand that confrontation tends to bring relief to both parties and puts you back into a shared reality.  Yep.... I'm being very cerebral right tonight. HAHAHA   

Ack!  Anyhow, here's what I loved about today - Friday

1. That Thai Chop Salad from Panera Bread = DELICIOUS. I love that lunch was provided at work today!
2. Meeting with my students is always a pleasure.  I love seeing their eyes open with excitement of a plan. 
3. I love that  if you have your own coffee mug you can get a coffee for $1.25 on campus!  That's amazing and so was that Pumpkin Spice Brule'!
4. Singing karaoke tonight a few times and being applauded is very night.  Whether I sang well or not... trust me.. I sing pretty decently.. hahahaha
5.  Sleeping in this morning will feel amazing!

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Before this sleeping pill settles into my system and I turn in for the night, I needed to write this entry.  This is my 200th entry by the way.  That's pretty good. I started this blog about a year ago.  So, I've only missed about 156 days of blogging. hahaha

Lately, I've been in a mood.  I can't even really explain it. It's not been a bad mood - just moody, I guess. Maybe aggressive? Maybe I'm just out of my normal routine and it's messing with me.  Who knows.  Add to that, trying to manage a new relationship - which I haven't had in ages.  At any rate, I need to work on that.

This blog is all about daily self-reflection. With hopes to be a better human being.

1. Today was the start of Movember.  One of my friends joined the team today and we are both starting off with freshly shaved faces to raise awareness for prostate cancer.  Glad to have him aboard!
2. My friend wanted to go to the National Tree Lighting Ceremony at the White House and asked me to put in a request for the lottery for tickets.  She didn't get tickets but I did! I told her she has a ticket and she's super excited. I also invited Greg to the event. It should be a lot of fun and to top it all off, we have seats!  No standing room only for us!
3. I saw a photo on Facebook that showed the humanity in others through the toughest of times.  It was heart warming to see and so I want to share it on this entry.
4. The movie, "Flight", starring Denzel Washington was really good.  Not what I expected at all and that made it a very well made movie with a few lessons throughout the story. 
5. Having a chat with my friend, Adam, online brought up new ideas on how to improve my Etsy and t-shirt shops.  It was a very good exchange of ideas and I appreciate his honesty.